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How come I can't stay sober?

11.06.2025 11:29

How come I can't stay sober?

Being present is what we addicts escape from. 🥂

Because the daily struggles of life sober seems do-able. Or at least not life threatening so it’s entirely possible. But it requires presence. It requires a structure because even if you are a free spirit who couldn’t care about taxes or insurance or the latest trending chemical peel, you have to be present enough to know when to eat, sleep, bath, etc… you have to be present enough to judge the car coming down the road. Do you have enough tie to walk across? Well it seems trivial but at the end of each day these are the things that our body feels when we get into bed.

Yes the life an addict can be very difficult too but any robot or zombie can do the task.

Why does my vagina smell sort of fishy/musty days after sex when my boyfriend ejaculates in me? There isn’t any itching or burning when urinating, so I don't think I have BV. It just doesn't smell like me.

it’s tiring being present.

the robot and zombi don’t even bother to think about the task again. We are just the average human and we will think about it and talk about it and try improve it and it is all so fucking draining.